Granite Strength and Safe Harbor

Sooooooo

The lovely cottage in the trees behind the mansion that I thought was to be my new home, it is not to be.

The dream was just a dream.

And I am oddly OK with it. Peaceful.

I was shaken at first. And really, really, reeeeeeally angry.

That passed quickly, thankfully.

But overall, I am not worried. Not stressed.

It's a miracle to me to be able to say that.

Ever since I went through burnout, stress has usually played havoc with my body. But last night, my sleep and my health were completely unaffected.

Maybe it's because already there has been so much upheaval that this is starting to feel like SOP. But I think it's just God's peace at work in my life right now.

I read this yesterday morning, and it came back to mind yesterday as my brain was trying to figure out what was going on what I should do next. Its The Message paraphrase of the psalm, and I've been reading it to get some fresh perspective on Scriptures I've read so many times. I love the straight-forward way it comes across.

PSALM 62

God, the one and only— I'll wait as long as he says.
Everything I need comes from him,
so why not?
He's solid rock under my feet,
breathing room for my soul,
An impregnable castle:
I'm set for life.

How long will you gang up on me?
How long will you run with the bullies?
There's nothing to you, any of you—
rotten floorboards, worm-eaten rafters,
Anthills plotting to bring down mountains,
far gone in make-believe.
You talk a good line,
but every "blessing" breathes a curse.

God, the one and only—
I'll wait as long as he says.
Everything I hope for comes from him,
so why not?
He's solid rock under my feet,
breathing room for my soul,
An impregnable castle:
I'm set for life.

My help and glory are in God
—granite-strength and safe-harbor-God—
So trust him absolutely, people;
lay your lives on the line for him.
God is a safe place to be.

Man as such is smoke,
woman as such, a mirage.
Put them together, they're nothing;
two times nothing is nothing.

And a windfall, if it comes—
don't make too much of it.

God said this once and for all;
how many times
Have I heard it repeated?
"Strength comes
Straight from God."

Love to you, Lord God!
You pay a fair wage for a good day's work!

Life really has felt like shifting sand for me. The last two years especially have been nothing but change and problem solving, digging myself out of a hole that seems to keep finding new bottom depths.

It's only been relatively recent that my trust in Him was restored and my faith healed. I had stopped trusting that He was good, or safe. It's been just a short time that I've been able to believe God ss the granite under my feet rather than the one shifting the sand on me over and over again. This situation has been the first "test" of that restoration and healing. I'm relieved to find that it holds. The Anchor holds.

I don't know what's next. I don't know what the future has for me.
All I know is my strength comes straight from God--so I trust Him absolutely, He is a safe place to be.